{"id":3173,"date":"2015-07-11T12:25:42","date_gmt":"2015-07-11T05:25:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mahisaajy.web.id\/blog\/?p=3173"},"modified":"2015-07-11T12:25:42","modified_gmt":"2015-07-11T05:25:42","slug":"takut-menjadi-diri-sendiri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mahisaajy.web.id\/blog\/2015\/07\/takut-menjadi-diri-sendiri\/","title":{"rendered":"Takut Menjadi Diri Sendiri"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Aku takut menjadi diriku sendiri. Aku sangat takut sekali dengan apa yang aku takutkan. Dengan hebatnya, aku menyembunyikan rasa takutku ini. Aku takut orang-orang lain tahu akan hal ini. Aku terlalu takut akan cemoohan mereka.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Aku ingin menjadi orang lain. Aku ingin melakukan apa yang dilakukan oleh orang lain. Aku tahu, meskipun hal tersebut tidak cocok denganku. Tapi, aku ingin. Aku ingin dipuji. 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